Looking back at the year I've had is something I do every year end. Surprisingly, I only remember the happy things and not the things that I ugly cried about. Must keep this in mind for the following year - whatever "major earth shattering" issue I am having at that moment will likely be forgotten months later. Here are some great things I remember from this year:
To be totally honest, motherhood totally kicked me in the ass. People that say being a mom is easy or natural are easily the biggest natural liars. None of it was easy for me. I lucked out that my daughter loved to sleep (like me) and would sleep 11 hour straight at night and a 2-3 hour nap during the day. I also lucked out for having a wonderful dayhome provider that adores and loves her. Other than that, I had to figure the rest out myself. I coped with my frustrations and feeling I was constantly failing through blogging (ranting) about my motherhood experiences. To my surprise, these posts actually got the most engagement because turns out there are other moms out there feeling the same.
My mom passed away 15 years ago and I was starting to feel ok and independent until I had my daughter. When Grace was born, it was the happiest day of my life but also the day I felt alone and wanted my mom to be there. I had to turn to my girlfriends for advice and help. They were wonderful. Not having a tribe of my own, I co-founded the mommy blog, Milk+Confetti with one of my closest friends, Ivy. We created this blog in hopes of building a community of moms helping each other. By the end of the year, we had grown to 19 contributing moms to the blog. I feel so blessed to have met them and to consider them as 19 of my new friends.
Obviously she has grown a lot this year. She is obessed with Peppa Pig. Loves to wear dresses/skirts and stands on top of the couch yelling she is the "king of the castle." Why not a princess I have no idea. Her journey I guess. Currently, she has over 200 words in her vocabulary and can talk for hours in a logical manner. She has also developed quite a personality. Most notably, when she was about 17/18 months old, we had this conversation:
Grace: I have POCKETS!!! (Puts hands in pockets)
Me: Cool!! What do you have in your pockets?
I'm 100% certain she doesn't think I am the sharpest tool in the shed.
Not surprisingly, after having Grace, my priorities went to her and started to slack off on taking care of myself. I had always been a product junkie and after being introduced to Rodan+Fields, I started to have the best skin of my life. I was so excited about this product, I shared it with all my friends and family. After that, I reconnected with a lot of friends that I haven't seen for a really long time. Most notably, I connected with a friend I met in elementary school and haven't seen in over 20 years. Turns out we live blocks away from each other and her daughter now attends our elementary school. Super grateful that something like skincare has allowed me to reconnect with old friends.
I hate change and I don't adapt well to change. Because so much has happened this year, I was forced to change, adapt, and grow. I couldn't keep things the way they were and had to change my mindset constantly. In order to do this, I spent a lot of time re-evaluating priorities and making hard decisions. I learned that I couldn't do it all and have to give up on things that didn't have a huge priority or passion for me anymore. This was tough.
After making some decisions, adjusting, and making some more decisions, I think I am getting the hang of this. I'm starting to feel clearer, lighter, and more like the current "me." I can't wait for what 2017 has in store for me!
Photo Credit: Heima Photography